What do I really see in the mirror?

Have you ever looked in the mirror and thought to yourself, what am I doing? I feel that way all the time, I sometimes don't know why I am here, I just don't feel like I make any sort of difference.

I don't know how to get out of all of this either. Even more, I feel like I am letting people down. I can kind of seeing in everyone's eyes. Why can't I be where I was 2 years ago, thinner and happier.

I feel like cutting right now, probably when I get of this computer, that's what I'll do. It's my body, screw it, I'll do what I want to it. It won't make me feel anymore ugly than I already feel.