How about 'thinner' like Beckham?

I really like this photo of David Beckham, his body, his look, it all represents everything that I'd like to have in myself. I kind of think he has a look simular that of Brad Pitt. I know images like this one are triggers to some, but I'm treating it more as a goal, as motivation to become a thinner me. I'm officially counting and restricting calories, I can get back there again.

In the wee hours of the morning, I posted a video of myself in all of my fatness, it was basically a body shot from the side and facing forward, needless to say it was pretty horrifying to watch and it didn't get any better the second or third time either. When I stepped in the scale this morning, I weighed a total of 198 lbs. I now know I need to be real disciplined.

I decided to start recording all of the foods I'm eating during the day to a website called FitDay. For those of you who don't know, FitDay is a Diet & Fitness Journal. At the moment I've only consumed 140 calories, this is real good for me, I don't feel like binging at all either. I am going to win this battle, I'm not going to be taken hostage by my weight any longer!