All I've felt like doing tonight is rolling up in a ball and crying. I'm so, so tired and I just feel like and can't do all of this anymore. My body is sore today for treating it so poorly, I just feel so sad and empty inside.
I feel like I've completely lost my identity, I feel like I don't have any of what I used to have inside of me, almost as if I've used all my credit up, you know what I mean. How did I ever get to this place?
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I feel that, eating disorders seem to be something you slip into without realising until its too late. Damn hard to pull yourself out of as well, I mean with regards to addictions (which I believe ED's are, just my personal view)
its not like you can give up food. You have to change your entire attitude, which is surely harder?!?
I dunno.
Anyway I think personally you Do have an identity, you just don't see it because the ED makes us blind to ourselves.
But from the messages you have left and the videos I have watched, you seem like a really great person
that sounds cheesy but we all need a bit of cheese sometimes!
anyways just be you (your great) and not your Ed, which isn't you.
hmm sometimes I wish I listened to the ED advice I gave out, its so gard to follow it yourself, even if you know is right!
I'm rambling........
xxx
You need to see a doctor to treat your depression.
The way you feel isn't how it needs to be.
I understand.
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